|I’m doing everything I can to survive, as I await my SSI disability hearing, which now, after bearing through almost two years of waiting actually will occur, on February 21st. What is sticking in my claw now, is that there is a local chef, who, in the past has done meals, two years in a row, for the homeless. This year, the spirit moved him to prepare meals for the affected government workers. He’s a good person, a sweetheart of a guy, but the effort, I think, is mislaid. It has to be a political motive behind, it, or a way of adding to his customer base…..a sort of sideways marketing, because—-they are the ones, along with the upper crust folks, in the Texarkana area, who can actually afford to partake in his cooking classes, dine on his meals/pay for his meals, and buy his art (he is a chef and an artist). I just don’t get some folks—-but this matter is sticking in my claw! I can’t afford one of his dinners! I can’t afford his classes (I cook, but southern style, not fancy) I can’t afford his paintings.|
This is what I’m talking about: https://www.investors.com/politics/editorials/federal-workers-government-shutdown/
The green monster of jealousy is rearing its ugly head right now, but I think it stinks, stinks, stinks. I’m not homeless, I’m poor/lower income. I’m not a senior, though I’m 56. I’m not a student. It’s just that all the way around, I feel like I’m somehow falling behind the cracks!! No senior discounts for me! No student discounts! Just very frustrated right now!!! And tired! And dealing with a damned occipital headache caused by the Chiari 1 Malformation I was born with!! It’s bad enough that I’m dealing with diabetes, hypertension, etc, but on top of everything, this C1M has caused me to lose hearing in my left ear, it’s caused severe tinnitus, occipital headaches, trouble with swallowing, light sensitivity, sleep apnea, and restless legs! I’ve endured this frustrating tinnitus since 2008, and a decade of it makes a soul cranky!! I keep on keeping one, persevering, plugging away, but gosh, I’m just so frustrated, right now!!