Since I was a very young man I wanted to be married. Everyone always comforted me as to the “right” timing and the person would fall into my lap. I am now 46 and way past my prime “marrying” age. In this time I probably overlooked a few people that maybe should have been in there.
I’ve picked someone out that I am very interested in marrying. I can barely get an interest signal. I’ve tried to be as romantic as possible and really thought I’ve shown a tremendous amount of interest. However you slice it, she is someone that other people show an amount interest in. In fact, she is probably what you call “magnetic”. So being ONE suitor versus many , there is a lot of noise.
I’ve asked God and even had a conversation with a confidant. After he thought it a while gave me the answer, “Maybe God doesn’t want you to be married?” It stung but maybe it’s true? I don’t like that answer to put it mildly.
I could go on and on about this. But everyday now I pray the answers come. Thus far the only this that is clear “not now” is the only answer I can discern. I dislike that as well. *shrugs*